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The truth of the matter is that I support my family. And it takes all of the money that I earn to keep a roof over their heads. Now that I need a roof of my own, I am intensely struggling to get through the next couple of weeks until the 31st, when I get my first paycheck. I hope it will be enough, I took out a student loan to supplement the dramatic decrease in pay that follows entering a school as a GTA, but I will not get that money until the 31st.

I hope that it will be enough for this first year. This college does not let their 1st year PhDs take on ANY additional responsibilities. The 2nd year, I can only pray, will be different. I will be able to take on as many classes as I want, and get a job on the side.
So I am pleading with you to go the gofundme I set up and toss me a couple of dollars. My friends have always been my strongest supports. Please help me now, if you can.

Thank you.

Edit: My loan money came, and I received my first paycheck. All is well. Thank you for your support and well wishes.


potterpuff fans!!
I got into a PhD program.

So I discovered Tumblr

neville norris
It is an interesting platform.

Still love lj though. Hello.

It seems like a good time to post

This past year, November of 2012, I decided to participate in NANOWRIMO, which I hadn't done since 2005 or 2006. Either way, after hearing that The Night Circus started out in it's earliest form, as a product of the project, I decided to get inspired and get writing... I made it to 23,412 words. The goal is 50,000. The cheerleaders of NANOWRIMO encourage just getting it all out there--no revision--which I could not do. Every time I caught an error in dialogue, in scene set up, in character motivation, I had to stop and try to fix it. I see why they tried to get me to press on, every change that I made led to other changes, led to me feeling demoralized, and eventually led to me not opening "November Writing File" again.

So, was it worth the time I took to actually participate? I think the answer is yes. I didn't get anything out of it that doesn't need substantial revision, but I did exercise my writing muscles a bit, and take my mind off of student papers and course management for a while.

So that's an update. Revision is something that always bothers me, especially when it comes to short stories. You change one scene, you end up changing the whole damn thing. Then it becomes this unrecognizable writhing mass instead of what you wanted it to be.


potterpuff fans!!
What the hell is going on? Where are my tag bundles? My network? GRRRRRR

Not Having a Job

It's odd to me, this experience of not having a job. As soon as I got out of high school, I started working. Through undergrad I worked part time. Through my master's I still worked part time. Afterward, I got another job to supplement my income...and then I made the decision to quit my job at the library, which I adored, quit my job teaching, which I loathed, and move to Atlanta.

Atlanta, while offering a treasure trove of jobs for computer programmers, analysis, and babysitters, does not want overqualified moi working in their coffee shops, their bookstores, or their restaurants. Furthermore, I'm under-qualified to work in most of their community colleges, or they already have a bevy of starving English professors banging on their doors seeking employment.

So I'm jobless. My fingernails have grown long and sharp, my desserts have become twice weekly things. I've invested 20+ hours in a video game called Okami. My morning are dedicated to job searching, my evenings to books and fanfiction. I've even started working on a short story.

Some of these things could appear productive, but it feels like stasis--like being trapped in the moment after you take some well deserved time off and before you start on your next project. I don't like this feeling. I don't like that I'm not helping to pay the bills.

However, this cohabitation thing, I like it. I could really get used to it, in fact.


News Update!

potterpuff fans!!
Dear everyone,

For the first time in all of my life, I am moving to a whole new city, a whole new state. I am moving to Atlanta.

The reason? Well, you can figure it out.

Wish me luck in finding a job, these pesky community colleges aren't giving me any feedback.



A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness

A librarian/scholar at Oxford's Library, who just happens to be a witch, finds a text that reveals the secrets of sorcery and falls in love with a 500 yr old vampire with a taste for fine wine.

The parallels here are endless. Read the book and tell me how soon my life is going to look like this.

Delicious is getting shut down!

Better move your bookmarks. I'm trying out Diigo. Any other recommendations?

Just watched the new True Blood

potterpuff fans!!
It was awesome.

Also, Master Borchers.
That is all.